Hurts

Okay this is bad

I think I'm falling..

Yes of course, for you

'til this days on

Still.. I can't understand something

Ironic, this word suits us the best

When we both in it

But the reality is bigger than us

Hard to believe yet hard to face

Now, I'm still trying to learn

That to love is not to own

This isn't that easy

One thing I've know, love hurts..so bad

the stranger =___=

today is our (the 10th grader studs of SDH) first day of school after a quiet-long-holiday. this first day is also our first day on our own track, both science and social. but for me, today is my first day on the science track. i feel amazed, awkward, and also feel that i'm still a stranger in my new class. bayangin aja, gw anak X1 (kls sebelum X ipa 3 yang sekarang ini gw tempatin) sendiri, bener2 anak limited edition banget gw. dan karena itu, gw merasakan rasa yang agak2 tidak enak, yaitu merasa gw adalah the stranger. yah moga2 aja lama2 gw ga ngerasain itu lagi. temen gw di kelas yg deket cuma grace. ya hari ini gw jalan juga ama vania n irene. walaupun di kelas fine2 aja, tapi gw jadi kangen ama X1 (miss you guys esp. the girls, the crowd, and my HT) trus gw juga ngerasa hari ini gw ga kea gw yang biasanya *i can't explain it* thanks buat temen2 gw yg laen, mereka yg ngedengerin cerita gw tentang hari ini, atau yang ngerasain hal yg sama kea gw, dan yg sudah bilang "hey everything's going to be alright la" or something else, thanks yah :) i feel better cause of it. lol. yah moga2 aja lama2 gw bisa beradaptasi dengan kelas baru yang gw yakin pasti anakny sebenerny bae2 cuma masi malu2 aja kali ya. dan sedikit berharap juga semester 2 bisa cpt selese ahahahah. btw, hari pertama gw uda dapet 2 pr, GREAT! pertama pr chemistry, trus kedua pr math. oh man~

X ipa 3

yak beginilah nasib anak DH, a.k.a Dian Harapan. di sekolah gw, ya emang lain daripada yang lain gitu. kita udah penjurusan padahal masi kelas 10. dan di semester baru ini, tepatnya yang akan dimulai pada hari SENIN, 11 JANUARI 2010 gw akan menjadi penghuni kelas yang baru yaitu X ipa 3 dengan HT sir agus dan sir paul. ya kesan pertama gw, kaget aja masuk ni kelas trus takut juga, soalnya banyak yang belom kenal. yang kenal banget pun cuma grace, pam2, iren, vania, cea, din2, sisanya ya cuma tau2 atau bahkan ga pernah tau. yah moga moga aja ni kelas lumayan seru deh, ga separah yang mungkin sekarang gw bayangin, anak2 yang pendiem bagai mulut terisolasi rapat2 atau bahkan ada juga anak yang terlalu bawel sampe2 bisa bikin orang berbusa kupingnya gara2 dengerin celotehan dia. haha. just kidding. ya ni kelas cuma jalan 1 semester sih, take it easy lah ya. *moga2 seru amiiinn*

My Grown Up Christmas List

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal the heart
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end oh,
This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something shiny
Wrapped beneath the tree

But heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
Oh, This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up christmas list

*i'm falling in love with this song hahay <3*

*ganteng banget ni lagu*

-my grown up christmas list (kelly clarkson)-

nata's birthday

thanks GOD for another fabulous day which has happened this day. we've got home from our friend's birthday party that held at TA. hari ini gw dan temen2 patut merayakan kesuksesan kita waktu ngerjain nata. lol. ngerjainnya sebenernya uda happening dari kmaren. hari ini tuh istilahnya "pengakuan" gitu deh. nah tadi, kita makan di ajisen ramen. sebenernya, nata cuma ngundang kita yang cewek2, tapi berhubung yang cowok2 berperan penting dalam ajang ngerjain si nata ini, otomatis ga ada COWOK ya GAK RAME. trus ceritanya tuh kita semua yang ngundang cowok2 buat rela2in dateng biarpun tidak ada traktiran :) ehehe. alhasil, mereka mau demi teman kita NATA tercinta. lol. waktu mereka muncul dengan sendirinya di ajisen, nata tercengang2 trus mereka dateng ga dengan tangan kosong pastinya, mereka dateng dengan kue tar yang dipengang sama adit. uhuy. trus nata tiup lilin deh abis itu kuenya dipotong. trus kuenya dibawa2 kemana2, dan sampai di bioskop kuenya harus nginep di loker penitipan barang XXI soalnya ga boleh ikut kita nonton. abis selese nonton, kuenya dijemput trus dibawa2 lagi ama nata ampe ke rumahnya. THE END. over all, we'd like to say SORRY and happy birthday nataaaaa. btw saudarasaudara tau ga sih kado yang gw bungkus kemaren a.k.a request-annya si mr.doubleyou yang gw bungkus sampe tengah malem nyaris subuh itu tepatnya yang buat hanna, hilang dalam sekejap! bangkai kau tukang bioskop tega2nya ngebuang kado hasil jerih payah gw buat hanna tanpa dosa begitu. sabarsabar untung gw masih sabar == laen kali kalo mau ngebuang barang, diliat dulu mbak dengan hati dan pikiran anda! nyiahaha.
ini dia beberapa foto yang gw jepret waktu disana ::

nata lagi potong kuee XD


















nata : "lu ngerjain gue ya la?"
gw : "piss nat ^^V"

p.s : tersangka = gw (fabiola kurnia), wesley secada, prahanggar satya utama, levina
       korban = natalia dahlan
       otak dari penipuan ini = oktavidianti renata dan silvia dwiputri
       penggembira = kevin limanjaya, aditya rio anggara, alvin novio
       crew = frisca christabella, grace permatasari, priska nathanael, hanna filia aurora

it's okay lah ya

aduh malem2 gini gw masih ada job. yap, besok mo ke party-nya nata. and ofcourse we need to prepare present. tapi present yg dimaksud di sini itu bukan yes-it-is-a-real-present, tapi "present" dalam tanda kutip. ahaha. dan "present" ini sebenernya requested by mr.doubleyou. sekarang gw lagi nulisin kartunya, trus tinggal ngebungkus deh. malem2 ngerjain mata gw sepet juga sih haha but it's okay lah ya skali2 amal ;) tapi skarang gw merasakan suntuk yang sesuntuk suntuknya, because my brother uda gone to sleep, jadi gw ga bisa nyalain lagu. therefore, skarang gw ditemenin atau bisa dikatakan diiringi dengan musik alami yaitu my brother's snores. haha. dengan nuansa kamar gw yg juga remang2 soalnya lagi2 gw ga bisa nyalain lampu (pasti dia bangun kalo gw nyalain lampu dan itu berakibat fatal buat nyokap yg mesti nemenin dia lagi sampe bener2 pules) then well, mata gw tambah sepet gara2 harus bener2 melek akibat kamar yang remang2 dan bikin mata gw kekurangan cahaya. sementara gw ngerjain request-an si mr.doubleyou dengan agak sedikit dying disini, dia malah enak2 tidur mungkin di atas kasur bin empuk di kamarnya. but again it's okay lah ya itung2 amal. ahahah. yah sgini aja deh yang mau gw ceritain buat intermezzo kesuntukan gw mengerjakan "present" tersebut. dan kita siap beraksi guys besok! we're the real drama queen ahayy XD

ini dia hasil jerih payah gw yg baru kelar jm 0:59 AM ==

the New Year 2010 ♥

sorry for a looooong inactive because i'm lazy to post at the time :P
so ehm here i am. oh God, the 2oo9 has passed and here come the 2010 :) although i believe 2010 will be better than 2oo9, yet i won't forget you dear. in 2oo9, i've learn many things, had many unforgettable moments such as, my junior high graduation, my WOW birthday surprise (thanks besties love you girls :P) and many more. i can't mention them one by one. it such a fabulous journey just like my blog's title. and i've enjoyed every single second that happened in 2oo9. then, it's time to move on guys! here come the 2010, there'll be another fabulous journey that is certainly not fabulous to the 2oo9 defeat. haha. here is some photos of those fabulous moments in 2oo9 ♥ ♥

















this photo's taken exactly after the graduation time :)

















and this one was taken after i had the surprise from them
on Saturday, 15th august at 6.30 AM, in my house.
nb: all of us haven't take a bath at that time :D

yap, all i'm gonna do in this 2010 are ofcourse be a BETTER person than the previous, be more MATURE and i'll GIVE THE BEST FOR DADDY JC's GLORY. yeah.

happy new year 2010 guys! love you ♥